illongonomics

Apr 18

“
i know a girl
she puts the color inside of my world
but she’s just like a maze
where all of the walls are continually changed
and I’ve done all I can
to stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
now I’m starting to see
maybe it’s got nothing to do with me

fathers, be good to your daughters
daughters will love like you do
girls become lovers who turn into mothers
so mothers, be good to your daughters too

oh, you see that skin?
it’s the same she’s been standing in
since the day she saw him walking away
now she’s left
cleaning up the mess he made

so fathers, be good to your daughters
daughters will love like you do
girls become lovers who turn into mothers
so mothers, be good to your daughters too

boys, you can break
you’ll find out how much they can take
boys will be strong
and boys soldier on
but boys would be gone without the warmth from
a woman’s good, good heart

on behalf of every man
looking out for every girl
you are the guide and the weight of her world

so fathers, be good to your daughters
daughters will love like you do
girls become lovers who turn into mothers
so mothers, be good to your daughters too

”

Jan 8

“
i discover the wheel and watch the buildings go by
you talk a little soft, turn off the radio
i just want to hear all the past times
the rushed hours, the endless lives
don’t become a burden
say the word and be free

you will find a great weight lifting
easing your mind, a great weight lifting
just leave it behind, a great weight lifting
and you will find a great weight lifting

it’s been a lonely winter hibernating away
you need a little sunlight on that face
how long can you stay in the darkness?
dust round the empty nest?
you could make your way out
if you lay down the load

you will find a great weight lifting
easing your mind, a great weight lifting
leave it behind, a great weight lifting
you will find a great weight lifting
just leave it behind, a great weight lifting
and you will find a great weight lifting

”

Dec 19

Nov 10

last night i had a dream

we were in a fun park and i’m on the sidelines, watching her as she spins high above the ground, having the time of her life. she comes down, says hi, and then for a reason i don’t understand, starts running. before i can ask her how it was. before she told me that she could see the whole park from the top of the ride. she just runs, and i give chase.

we pass through multiple rides and attractions until we get to an elevator. she runs inside and, snickering, hits the close button. i make it just in time to wedge a foot in, stopping the closing doors and giving me enough time to hit the up button on the panel to open it. she quickly moves through the other elevator door (it was a 2 way elevator) and does the same thing. again i try to wedge my foot but instead of hitting the open button, i press another floor.

that’s when i lose her. the theme park turns into a casino, and i’m surrounded by slot machines and beautiful women and neon and cabaret lights. i look for her frantically but cannot find her. all of a sudden i realize that i’m on the wrong side of it all, that maybe, somehow she was on the other side waiting for me. but the place was too huge.

i realize i have a car but its in valet. i go to valet to try to pick it up but the attendant is an asshole. i try to reason with him and he tells me to throw him the key, which bounces off an invisible metal pole under a bridge somewhere. i use my phone’s light and we find the key, but it’s surrounded by so many lost items, from real people i know. i take them all just in case and run to my car.

as i’m driving towards the other side, suddenly things come out of the parking lot. creatures, wookies, giants. they come out in front of me and underneath me, unsettling my car and causing me to swerve frantically in the most difficult driving of my life, just to stay on course.

i finally make it to the other side. she’s there, waiting and smiling, but the day is dark now. i pick her up and she says “where have you been?” calmly i tell her i was just around, checking things out, but in the back of my mind i feel devastated. to have lost such a day and the opportunity to spend it with her. abruptly, i wake up.

Oct 18

I WANT THIS CAKE

Oct 11

Sometimes we don’t know how much time we have

until we see someone lose it.

http://ibnlive.in.com/news/33-chilean-miners-finally-see-the-light-of-day/132858-2.html

What have you done in the past two months?

Oct 8

Found an old Xanga post

from a former female friend. Dated September 3, 2004

Mmm…. friends… they’re quite the ornaments of life, aren’t they? …Are transitory friends still considered friends even after alienated? Or maybe once they estrange themselves from your life, they vanish along with all the embellishments they once brought upon the trite life you lived. When two souls are in proximity, everything is cordial and actions of aid for each other becomes not incumbent but rather an arbitrary decision made out of the camaraderie among them. If people once shared something so profound with one another, is it really possible to obliterate that connection completely?Perhaps friends that once-were aren’t lost… because memories cannot be expunged, only put away..::nod nod:: Memories… friends that once- were are memories… the good ones are cherished and the bad ones bring us lessongs that are nevertheless precious. These friends and memories I guess are never gone, just … confined in a clandestine place in your hearts.

So if anyone else misses a former friend, don’t drown yourself in a state of melancholy. The irreplaceable memories shared between the two of you are yours to keep.